you call me "gorgeous",you call me "beautiful",you say you're "envious",of all that i'am,i tell you to "save you're breath",and tell you "tankyou"say "what you're saying. It's not worth it"
cause when i get home,face to face, fighting with mirror,all the words you say,yeah my reflection tears me down.throw 'em away!
all you're saying, yeah i don't need it,don't want you're sympathy, even if it's confusing,being me, wish life was so simple,living a perminant drama,oh see...
tell me you're "jealous"cause i have "style"tell me i belong "upon a T.V screen"you tell me anything,you're saying everything,i'am still warning you,"watch out" it's coming out,the monster in me,the one who brings me down,you say "you're so beautiful. So kind",i say "you're lying"
cause when i get home,face to face, fighting with mirror,all the words you say,yeah my reflection tears me down.throw 'em away!
all you're saying, yeah i don't need it,don't want you're sympathy, even if it's confusing,being me, wish life was so simple,living a perminant drama,gossiping with my girls.
when i sleep,you're telling me "rest you're gorgeous face"time fades away here,when i'm awake,you're telling me "eyes like that shouldn't cry"and "you deserve all you're dreams"
but it's not so easy being me, and i'm not expecting sympathy.cause when i get home,face to face, fighting with mirror,all the words you say,yeah my reflection tears me down.throw 'em away,all you say,are you're nice words go to the floor,lookin' around at the mess i've made once again of myself.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Love Doesn't Love Me (song i wrote)
this train is roaring through my head,
today, feeling like i'am dead,
all my colours in my life,fade away to black and white,
lying here tonight,staring at the ground...
i'am a mess,all over the floor,
i've gone and put my foot in it like so many times before,
of course there is "someone else"
what am i thinking?
love doesn't love me.
am i too moody,
am i too broody,
am i too out there,
sorry that i've gotta care,wish i could,turn the switch on this thing you call a "heart",
wait...is mine still beating?
of course is it,
i'm feeling it,
i'm feeling sick,
and i'm lying on the bathroom floor,
the showers running but this ain't funny,
i'am staring down at the floor again.
i'am a mess,
all over the floor,
i've gone and put my foot in it like so many times before,
of course there is "someone else"
what am i thinking?
love doesn't love me,
i'm misery's company,
i'am a mess,
all over the floor,
i've gone and put my foot in it like so many times before,
of course there is "someone else"
what am i thinking?
love doesn't love me.
neither do you.
today, feeling like i'am dead,
all my colours in my life,fade away to black and white,
lying here tonight,staring at the ground...
i'am a mess,all over the floor,
i've gone and put my foot in it like so many times before,
of course there is "someone else"
what am i thinking?
love doesn't love me.
am i too moody,
am i too broody,
am i too out there,
sorry that i've gotta care,wish i could,turn the switch on this thing you call a "heart",
wait...is mine still beating?
of course is it,
i'm feeling it,
i'm feeling sick,
and i'm lying on the bathroom floor,
the showers running but this ain't funny,
i'am staring down at the floor again.
i'am a mess,
all over the floor,
i've gone and put my foot in it like so many times before,
of course there is "someone else"
what am i thinking?
love doesn't love me,
i'm misery's company,
i'am a mess,
all over the floor,
i've gone and put my foot in it like so many times before,
of course there is "someone else"
what am i thinking?
love doesn't love me.
neither do you.
Simmy
OK,
so her name is Simone,
she is like my personal therapist/diary, she knows the in's and out's of my train-wreck i call a mind, she know's my deepest darkest secret and her lips are like padlocks that'll stay shut if i ask them too,
this girl gives me all the reason to trust and love her, i love her like a sister and i trust her with MYSELF, even though i don't trust myself, it's just how much faith, love and trust i have in this wonderfull human being,
she may not ALWAYS be there for me, but she WILL always be there for me - fast forward 10years and we'll be sitting in a house somewhere hopefully happy (not together cause that is totally inscenst) but she'll have kids, a nice house, and the best husband on the planet and he will love her because it's hard not to love her to be honest,
i saw her cry once and i cried myself because i couldn't bear to see the sight of it, i can honestly say that image is one of my nightmares, because somebody that shines as much as she does should never shed a single tear.
so her name is Simone,
she is like my personal therapist/diary, she knows the in's and out's of my train-wreck i call a mind, she know's my deepest darkest secret and her lips are like padlocks that'll stay shut if i ask them too,
this girl gives me all the reason to trust and love her, i love her like a sister and i trust her with MYSELF, even though i don't trust myself, it's just how much faith, love and trust i have in this wonderfull human being,
she may not ALWAYS be there for me, but she WILL always be there for me - fast forward 10years and we'll be sitting in a house somewhere hopefully happy (not together cause that is totally inscenst) but she'll have kids, a nice house, and the best husband on the planet and he will love her because it's hard not to love her to be honest,
i saw her cry once and i cried myself because i couldn't bear to see the sight of it, i can honestly say that image is one of my nightmares, because somebody that shines as much as she does should never shed a single tear.
TODAY
why does the heart beat?
to keep us alive.
why do we feel?
because we are HUMAN and it's what humans do best.
why do we fall in love?
we just love the mess it leaves us in.
Today i confessed to a certain someone my love for them, only to have them say "sorry, there is someone else",
not only in 'someone else' going to always be in 'somebodys' life, but "someone else" just can't help but get in the way of you're happiness.
to keep us alive.
why do we feel?
because we are HUMAN and it's what humans do best.
why do we fall in love?
we just love the mess it leaves us in.
Today i confessed to a certain someone my love for them, only to have them say "sorry, there is someone else",
not only in 'someone else' going to always be in 'somebodys' life, but "someone else" just can't help but get in the way of you're happiness.
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